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I can't believe I am who I am,
Being friendly, always nice
I wonder when my darkness will rise
Am I cursed? Cause it feels like I am,
Always following the great big plan.
The plan of doing the good, even it’s for the other parts best and not mine,
Following it for too long, I've completely lost track of time.
I feel like a robot, with no feelings at all
And nobody can see this great big wall.
The wall that no one can see,
Is sealed right here inside of me.
Why do I have to be so kind? Can't I just be mean?
And wash my kind heart completely clean.
Start over, throw myself away,
So I can see a clear beautiful day.
People say they like me for who I am now,
And they don't want to change me somehow.
I feel grateful, but something is there,
Showing me a path that leads nowhere.
At the smallest mistake, right away, I feel guilt,
Even though I shouldn't feel bad about it.
When I'm mean to people who are mean to me,
I just can't seem to let them be.
Telling them I'm sorry, getting such guilt,
Because of the kindness I've managed to build.
I'm very confused, don't really know.
I want to change, and don't want to at all.
No one is perfect, I know that well.
But somehow it feels like I'm stuck in a cell.
Being friendly, always nice
I wonder when my darkness will rise
Am I cursed? Cause it feels like I am,
Always following the great big plan.
The plan of doing the good, even it’s for the other parts best and not mine,
Following it for too long, I've completely lost track of time.
I feel like a robot, with no feelings at all
And nobody can see this great big wall.
The wall that no one can see,
Is sealed right here inside of me.
Why do I have to be so kind? Can't I just be mean?
And wash my kind heart completely clean.
Start over, throw myself away,
So I can see a clear beautiful day.
People say they like me for who I am now,
And they don't want to change me somehow.
I feel grateful, but something is there,
Showing me a path that leads nowhere.
At the smallest mistake, right away, I feel guilt,
Even though I shouldn't feel bad about it.
When I'm mean to people who are mean to me,
I just can't seem to let them be.
Telling them I'm sorry, getting such guilt,
Because of the kindness I've managed to build.
I'm very confused, don't really know.
I want to change, and don't want to at all.
No one is perfect, I know that well.
But somehow it feels like I'm stuck in a cell.
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Written 9th September 2013
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The one mystic and poet was asked what he considered to be the greatest sin, and he replied "to hurt someones feelings"... It is easy to be unkind, but it takes courage to be kind. Not forgetting the wise words of Siddhartha Gautama "before you speak consider three things: Is it necessary? Is it true? Is it kind?" - You get what you plant. Plant corn you get corn, plant grapes you get grapes. The wise have often said by planting kindness you should never be concerned on what you get in return. But by planting meanness all you ever get is meanness in return.